Depression

Nobody understands it
How it feels
Except those who had have it
It's that numb feeling
That almost never going away
You think
" Well that's not that bad"
But you don't know
You don't feel anything
Half the time you don't register your surroundings
You only listen to half of what people say
If you feel anything its either
Anger
Sorrow
Frustration
You stop doing things you love
Or normally do
You shut youself from everything
You want to escape
I read books, to be in someone else's shoes
You start only thinking bad things
You have no hope
You start not caring about things
You think about suicide
you think how precis it must be
I would have tried it
But 2 things kept me from that decision
1. I had awesome friends,
2. My mom told me that people who commit suicide go to hell
That was when i believed in her and religion.